Signs of lifeforms in my flowerpot.. after umpteen tries to grow herbs, this is the greatest accomplishment I have come so far.
Last year, I took a much needed break from the working world.
It was a combination of bad job fit, toxic work culture and bad management, that made me come to my decision. There wasn’t anyone in particular to blame. Everyone (including myself) contributed to the “perfect storm”.
Although I was no longer suffering from late nights and work related stress, I was still experiencing high amounts of stress. Very often, I found myself frustrated and depressed with my imperfections.
I was full of anger, resentment, and shame towards life. My inner self was consumed with negativity.. Hanging out with toxic company, didn’t help too.
Early this year, while I was in church, I heard my Pastor shared a verse.. “For what shall it profit a man, if he shall gain the whole world, and lose his own soul?”
It hit me.
If everything had worked out, and it meant putting my life in constant stress, worry, fear.. losing my health, peace and joy. What benefit would it be to me? Definitely, I wouldn’t want that to happen to me.
It also dawned upon me, this break would be meaningless if I neglect my soul.
Seedlings sprouting from the dirt.
Since then, I set aside time to read, pray and meditate on bible verses.. They helped me to let go of the unpleasant past and forgive myself and others.
It’s been a more than a month now, and I’m definitely more at peace with everything.
The season of good things is here in my heart- the seedlings of happiness have started to spout! 🙂